He shifted gears on 19 June 2010 and yet on 18 June we had breakfast together, he read the Financial Times, checked his emails and yelled at me for forgetting to bring the phone charger!
I guess the point I am trying to make is we just got to take life as it comes – and I learnt that
The way I look at this as a small separation – he has just gone ahead to find me the best spot in the next sphere! After all he always made sure he got me the
best. If I yearned for something … whether it was cars, jewelry, homes or properties … it was almost as if magic! Steve would make sure my dreams came true … there were no limits or no compromises or conditions.So if you guys have that ONE question on your mind – have I encountered Stephen after 19th June!
Well not in the mirage of his human form.. heck no! But plenty of times otherwise!
An instance was when I was at a mall. Running around like a headless chicken trying to wrap up grocery, laundry, mail and the car wash before picking up the kids from swimming lessons. Now, car wash was Stephen’s chore and this particular day I just had a tantrum. The car was almost ready to be collected and I refused to move from where I was seated – in the middle of the mall and nowhere in particular. I was annoyed with reality and just wanted to maybe see Steve .. even if I was hallucinating.
This man walks up to me and gives me a chocolate. He said to me ‘Have a nice day!’ and walks off. Instant reaction was to clutch my bag tighter and think in my head ‘FREAK!!’ I got up, gently tossing the chocolate on the couch – but couldn’t help pick it up again! Ofcourse it was my fav choc. Steve would buy for me to lift my spirits when I was down or annoyed!
So you see .. Memories don’t simply disappear! Its cherished and it gives one the hope and strength to [like Steve would say] ‘Ride the wave …’
Cheers everyone!
Amal, Ash … Thank you for being such good friends! Means a lot that you have constantly been in touch. SS