He shifted gears on 19 June 2010 and yet on 18 June we had breakfast together, he read the Financial Times, checked his emails and yelled at me for forgetting to bring the phone charger!
I guess the point I am trying to make is we just got to take life as it comes – and I learnt that
The way I look at this as a small separation – he has just gone ahead to find me the best spot in the next sphere! After all he always made sure he got me the
best. If I yearned for something … whether it was cars, jewelry, homes or properties … it was almost as if magic! Steve would make sure my dreams came true … there were no limits or no compromises or conditions.So if you guys have that ONE question on your mind – have I encountered Stephen after 19th June!
Well not in the mirage of his human form.. heck no! But plenty of times otherwise!
An instance was when I was at a mall. Running around like a headless chicken trying to wrap up grocery, laundry, mail and the car wash before picking up the kids from swimming lessons. Now, car wash was Stephen’s chore and this particular day I just had a tantrum. The car was almost ready to be collected and I refused to move from where I was seated – in the middle of the mall and nowhere in particular. I was annoyed with reality and just wanted to maybe see Steve .. even if I was hallucinating.
This man walks up to me and gives me a chocolate. He said to me ‘Have a nice day!’ and walks off. Instant reaction was to clutch my bag tighter and think in my head ‘FREAK!!’ I got up, gently tossing the chocolate on the couch – but couldn’t help pick it up again! Ofcourse it was my fav choc. Steve would buy for me to lift my spirits when I was down or annoyed!
So you see .. Memories don’t simply disappear! Its cherished and it gives one the hope and strength to [like Steve would say] ‘Ride the wave …’
Cheers everyone!
Amal, Ash … Thank you for being such good friends! Means a lot that you have constantly been in touch. SS
My Grandfather the Late Rev George Koshy was a big believer in life after death. Not in the "Christian" image of an afterlife playing harps and hanging out with cherubs but in different aspects. He also wrote a book in Malayalam about it. I have never read it basically as I can't read Malayalam but him and I had many discussions on this.
ReplyDeleteOver the course of years and experiences I too believe in alternate life forms, soul existence and multi dimensions. We as humans need a beginning and an end. We calculate in relationship to time. Our innate instinct to amass wealth and "things" is also the rat race against time. However there is the soul which by now most humans agree is in us. Where does the soul go? Is our soul being judged? (A favorite of religion). Can the soul be destroyed? Does a newborn have a new soul? Does our soul leave us at times and come back? So...so many soul questions...hard to comprehend.
Shyla, your experience with the stranger and the chocolate is a hint at what a soul could accomplish out of the human body. The Zen between Stephen and you is strong, look for signs around and you will see more manifestation.
He is part of our lives and we are part of his. Today with Facebook and blogs we humans have excellent means of communicating with each other and keeping tabs. What is to say that his soul while also checking on us is also checking on others from what that soul used to know in past or simultaneous experiences and maybe he would have to take a lot of interest in the preparation of a rookie team in another dimension. A team that is looking to win a race and the only technology they have is HM Ambassador technology. I do believe he would consider it as his duty to develop that team with all the knowledge he has and make it perform. He'd probably be the Ross Brawn there. Now that would be shifting gears! Imagine if that were the case, would he have any time to think of us here?
Thanks Amal and Shyla for the posts. Stephen is our boy and his episodes would never be forgotten.
Interesting! I`m not a big believer nor am I a non-believer in such experiences! but hey, that really doesn`t matter - all that matters Shyla is that you believe and you are experiencing touch-points in life that bring you unmeassured happiness and thats all there is to life - the quest for happiness and as long as you find it in different manifestations and experiences, hey you are blessed....
ReplyDeleteI align with Ash`s chain of thought on the fact that you and Stephen have a great bond and you folks connected really well and you were the really understanding, always in the background personality who filled his life with joy and a sense of security and most of all filled his life with happiness. I have never heard him nor would anyone else for that matter, complaining about his life nor his family and I think he had a really good and enjoyable life; and you were really the fulcrum of that life and he`d probably have said Thank You a gazzilion times in his mind for that Im sure! So let it flow.... enjoy the experiences and stay connected.... as Shamil Habib would say - simply be NOKIA (connecting people....) :)
Gosh I just realized I was getting a bit on the edge of being philosophical and getting into a "gyan" mode, so better stop right here :)
I`d say Shyla, simply go with the flow... you`ll have several of these experiences as your mind will continue to connect with several touch-points in life - most importantly as your mind and life is still filled with experiences which are still fresh from your partnership and love of Stephen... let it roll... unleash life in its manifested form and be happy!! Thats all there is to life I`d imagine - Just be happy and memoreis will keep him alive in all our minds!
PS: Ash & Shyla - what ever happened to the quiz bit? given up??
Quiz - sure it would eventually be you me and Shyla, maybe Monty Simmons would join in but that would be it...best let it rest!
ReplyDeleteThe quiz idea is great, but like Ash said .. I'll be the quiz master and you two will be the regulars! Monty may chip in and I can emotionally blackmail Shilpa and Sharon .. but that will be the crowd!
ReplyDeleteAny other ideas to get the wider group to chip in? I reckon most of the other are technology shy of updating the blog :)